im getting to the point where im pretty sure none of it matters again. i may have been fake and plastic a week ago but at least i felt fake things. now i dont feel anything at all. i guess this is my defense mechanism? im just sitting here. and feeling... nothing. even though he didnt call me last night, and even though i know you're not going to ( Read more... )

... fuck. i woke up.

You are a Fork.


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i cant even write about it. katie, i wrote you a note. you'll hate it. but its for you and i have no way to get it to you. what the hell.

im going invisible to most of you for a while. i just cant stand your fucking voice.

i like how you're so ready to run away at the slightest sign of turbulance. you dont even stay to ask. you dont know what this is about. dont assume. im more complex than you think. goodjob hiding again.

EDIT: THIS IS ME TRYING TO FUCKING SURVIVE. ITS NOT ABOUT YOU. IT IS ABOUT ME ( Read more... )

i went for a late night walk in a flood with brett last night. it was fun. i just woke up. its 12:30, and ive just woken up. i might be sick. i have a head pressure thing building up, and i can feel it like whoa. i want some books. i think i have more money on my barnes and noble card. lets go find out? ah. first i need to get clean and eat ( Read more... )

gah dammit.

school is cancelled. im overjoyed. because now i get two days off, correct? exams are being moved back a day, and that means that since the first and second exams are tomorrow, and i dont have to take those, i get to stay home another day? yes?

im right.

goin' to fireside cause im retarded. be back laaater. call the cell. 670-0175

Gonna find my baby, gonna hold her tight ( Read more... )