Its Amazing What People Think When They Are High

[xchinadesadex]

this an entry from my written journal,the bold are my comments that im writing now

My Accomplishments as of 6/12/2000

1.left a dead marriage & started a new life=gained independence (ie.became dependant on someone else:pete)

2.i began taking care of my body,lowfat diet & exersize (i am also using drugs and ive become bulimic)

3.began caring about

Comments

[stormy_tears]

This almost mirrors my life a few years back, except I had a different choice of drug. I have sank back into social phobia, since I quit using. :\

[violentflame]

Looks all too familiar to me as well. The only thing that has changed is my social phobia has never returned, I don't understand why or how. I used to be a total wreck around people (sweating shaking stuttering) but now I'm the opinionated loud mouth. What the heck?

[axcess_denied]

I can relate. How's it going these days?
How long have you been clean?
I made it 90 days in 04, and relapsed.
sighhhhh, it's such a long journey.

[xchinadesadex]

since august 30th,2003

[axcess_denied]

WOW!!! Congrats on staying strong..........!!

[lucidacceptance]

These comments...the ones at the end that you are "writing now," are they written to describe history in retrospect, or do they apply to "now,"?? The reason I ask is that I wonder if you are planning to shoot k & heroin in another 4-6weeks, and I am worried about this bulimia stuff also, it's the first I have heard of that from you.

[xchinadesadex]

no no no....i am still clean!this was a journal entry from 6/12/00.the comments i am writing next to them are sarcastic.i was new to drugs and i was in denial,i was witing what i thought was going on,the bold words are me now looking back on what was actually going on.

[lucidacceptance]

Phew. Okay. Good stuff, then!

[amante_donne]

If you were to sit down and write new comments next to the entries, what would your new comments say? it might be an idea to do them and then you can see just how things have changed

CLEARING THINGS UP A BIT

[xchinadesadex]

i think i didn't write my explanation very clearly.i do that sometimes because my brain thinks faster than my hands can type(actually my index finger,i dont know how to "type".
i have a written journal that goes from 2000-2002.this list of accomplishments,i wrote on june 12,2000.ive been re-reading that journal lately,my head was stuck so far up my ass at the time,i started sarcasticly commenting to each thing on the list.the bold comments are what i am thinking NOW,looking back at what was REALLY going on in that time-period.i am just stunned by how ignorant i was.

sorry guys! i hope i cleared things up a bit...