well lets see ( Read more... )

its been almost one month since ive talked to daniel. in a way im rather relieved because i think talking to him would only make things harder. i am coping well, at least i think so considering the circumstances. i have my good days and bad days. the bad days are usually when im by myself. i hate that. why is it that you can only remember the good ( Read more... )

i have been thinking a great deal this past week and ive realized a few things. im really starting to believe that daniel and i are not meant to be together. i cant believe he would do something so rude and unkind and then not even call me the next day to see if i made it home safe. i just totally misjudged his character. i never ever thought he ( Read more... )

i am feeling so lost and confused lately. so many things are happening at once that i feel as if my head and heart are going to explode. between my mom and many other things i am just scared and helpless. i can only hope for the best.

so it has been three years. i have been struggling with that fact all day. im not sure why. seth wasnt even my brother, he was daniel's. yet it seems to bother me more than it does him. he just bottles his feelings up i am assuming. my friends have been really helpful. dont know what id do without them. to anyone who reads this. please drive ( Read more... )

i look at you ( Read more... )

i am feeling a bit overwhelmed right now, so i decided to put my thoughts down on "paper". hope you don't mind, i might babble on ( Read more... )

i feel like such a foolish girl. i obviously do not know how to read people. i am an idiot just for have thinking it. i don't understand others...but most of all i do not understand myself.

i am feeling rather strange lately. i am having a mixture of feelings actually. tomorrow daniel is going to santa cruz to visit tyler and i really want to go. sadly i can't due to my pitiful job. he is riding up with another girl, let's call her Suzie, whom he's known forever. it was going to be daniel, suzie and chris but now it is just daniel and ( Read more... )

i very much dislike people that make me feel worthless. i am worth much more than anyone could ever know. if you can't see that, please leave me alone.

ps. today i had my interview for Opportunity House. i am excited...i can't wait to start volunteering.