we broke up 3 weeks ago.
im devastated. so much for everything he said.

i just want to hurt him, like he hurt me.
i doubt thatll happen cos hes blatenly heartless.

booo :[

loved it!
it was so much better than i expected. not one falling out!
not one bad moment, im so in love with him right now.

everything is perfect.

dunno why, just am.
poz makes my insides do flips :]
i still get excited when i go see him.
how gay!

hes gonna ring me soon this also excites me.

spain in a week!
sunshine, booze, not very many clothes, swimming, and sexy tme. not necessarily in that order.
eeeee im well excited.

i look at my life now, and i look at my life what 3/4 years ago. whats changed.
not alot.
im miserable, i feel imcomplete, i have no purpose, my friends dont wanna no, and my boyfriend is getting sick of my unhappy ways.

why havent i drove off the tyne bridge yet?

its been a while.
i still hate life.
things with poz have got better, thank god.
he is my little fury rock :]

started counseling, i dont rate it much but we shall see.

im sick of the north east. dunno what to do. booo.

nearly broke up with poz.
i hate my brain.

i also hate myself.

but if i hadnt said this is where your supposed to talk me out of it, i reckon he would of let me go.

i shouldnt take it out on him cos i feel like shit.
i love him.

i got flu. gave it to poz, so ive been at his house all week, its been super rad. gives me hope that we wont kill each other when we go to spain. haha

i miss him now im home, god dammit.

how my moods can change.
im perfectly happy now, just abit angry.

xmas has come and gone, new year was rad. and im proper looking forward to 2008.
holiday with poz.
many nights out.
going back to uni.
and other great things.

tally ho

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