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im over im over im over you i scream. no im lying to myself. what a fucking idiot. someone kill me.

This entry will just be me getting everything on my mind out ( Read more... )

I'm sorry I was ever in your life. Sorry your life isn't perfect. Sorry I can't be there everytime you need me. I'm sorry for everything. I want you to be better and feel better. Your'e a wonderful and beautiful person, inside and out. Sounds cliche but its true. I love you. I hope someday things will be better, for the both of us. I wish I ( Read more... )

For one night, it was fucking perfect. Everything was set, everything. It was one of the best nights of my life. It seems every time I try everything just falls apart. Because some things fail

as did we.

nick.

Today, I went to kohl's with Jaki. Magical.

Nick

I haven't updated this in a while. haha. Hmm..well this weekened I was going to see Jaki on Thursday (we didn't have school on Thursday and Friday or all the stalker freaks reading this who don't go to school and just stalk people) but I went inside thinking I could come back out and meet up with her. But they wouldn't let me back out. I talk to ( Read more... )

On friday, I planned something with Jaki downtown. I was planning to stay until six with her. My dad calls, when Jaki is on her way, and tells me he's picking me up in fifteen minutes. So Jaki gets there, and I run out to tell her that my Dad is picking me up in fifteen. I felt like such an ass. I really wanted to spend time with her and I ( Read more... )

Well, haven't updated this in quite a while. hmm. The court date was today, and my Dad isn't home yet so I have no idea what has happened. I found out some really bad news about um..these two adults. I can't believe how udderly horrible a parents can fuck over their child. They're supposed to raise the child and keep it from drugs, alcohol, ( Read more... )

I wish I was back in California. I was so happy there. I feel like seperating myself from the world. Ever since I qwas about five I saw myself all grown up...but what I saw pleased me, but might not please other people. I saw my grown body, huddled in a corner, crying, but that's how I wanted it to be. I always thought if I was alone, away ( Read more... )