psst. i've moved to amaryllis_.

but i'm keeping xenophobic. just for memories' sake.

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friends-only. livejournal users only. certain people have no business knowing how i feel.

i'm sorry, anni, i know you read this so you understand what is going on. just send me e-mails more often, okay? :D

& if you're not already on the friends-list, leave a comment. i'll add you if i find you interesting.

(you're all going to want me to shut up about trenton, i'm sure. but it's the only thing on my mind and this is my journal, right ( Read more... )

well. i guess everything is okay. i still have sporadic minutes where i break down and let the tears come, bursting free from my eyes and sliding down my cheeks. wear my emotions on my sleeve right there for everyone to see. and i still can't really eat.. i guess stress does that to you ( Read more... )

phone rang, thought it was him. haha. stupid me.

(& i can't stop thinking about him.)

i feel a litte better, after talking to him. tears dry for now, and i'm refocusing myself from, "oh my god" to starting all over again, the process all over again, and seeing if it's possible to work out a second time around ( Read more... )

i don't know what to say ( Read more... )

immersing myself in projects from the local craft store, purple and white paint, and books. something to keep my mind of the questions and thoughts that are tugging, incessantly, at my heart and at my soul.

i have a chemistry assignment to do.

dear sarah c.,

i wish we were better friends. you'd think that from seventh grade (at least) till now ( Read more... )

so many things i want to question. to fix. but i'm tired. beyond tired, to the point of giving up. maybe i already have.

fight for me.