i keep thinking, more often now tha ever, of what my last year's english teacher wrote in my annual. she could have written about how sweet of a girl i was, how i showed talent in writing.. whatnot.. but instead she wrote the simple quote that i repeat in my head a lot nowdays.

to thy own self be true& i think she knew me more than i ever realized ( Read more... )

haha. i suck. no, really ( Read more... )

i miss him, even though i see him almost every day. i miss him wanting me and saying things like, 'i have to take care of you' while carefully guiding me away from things that might do me harm. i miss being crazy about eachother.

i know it's still there. but we just need to find it again. find eachother again.

the last two days have been.. interesting. hrm ( Read more... )

despite the fact that i know a handful of people from school read this, as well as strangers from who knows where, i like to pretend i don't have an audience.

hm.

neunundneunzig luftballons..

i know i've done this before, but i'm feeling optimistic and like i really need to do something / explore other things. so ( Read more... )

i think everything is okay now. i made him come over today, even though he didn't want to, and we talked. well, at first we didn't, and we exchanged saying things like, "maybe i'm not the one meant for you." & etc. i got frustrated after a while and pulled my knees to my chest, burying my face in my hands, and he did something i honestly didn't ( Read more... )

coming home with tears in my eyes, crawling in bed and lying there. my mom kept trying to get me up but i just wouldn't ( Read more... )

i really really want to be held & cuddled & kissed & hugged & touched right about now. sigh.

( Read more... )