I was sleeping, and I could feel his presence hovering above me, so I sprang up, I thought I was dreaming... He wasn't over for more than 5 minutes when he said "we have to break up" I immediately started crying, and became almost childlike, pushing him away. He started crying too. I could tell he didn't want to do it. He assured me it wouldn't be ( Read more... )

Feelings non-existent, loss of a tortured soul ( Read more... )

Just because you can quote vnv nation does not make you fucking "spooky" in any way, it just makes you a fake slut that tries entirely way too hard to get noticed by people who never gave a shit in the first place. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I'm fucking upset. For some odd reason I've just been in one of those moods where I want to stab someone, not ( Read more... )

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I usually don't do this, because it's no one's business but mine and Lester's, but this time and most every other time, it's special and memorable. How do you know love is real? I know. When Lester looks into my eyes and tells me he loves me, I hear the words, see them, but more importantly, I feel them. Sunday night was amazing, not only were the ( Read more... )

Out of curiosity I read every journal entry I posted in the past. It honestly wasn't me, I can't believe some of the things I said, or even thought. Some of the things I read made me smile, like the conversations Les and I had, those were words I had to hold onto. I have a death grip on the past, it's not as though I incessantly bring it up. I have ( Read more... )

- Still jobless, still suck at life.
- Lessy and I are doing great.
- Thrilled about Halloween.
- My asshole idiot vessel has a flat tire, this shit never happened to the BMW.
- Today, Amy and I are going to have yet another photoshoot, god damn we're camera whores.

-- Basically, there's nothing new going on... And I like it that way. That is

#1 Boyfriend Survery

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Vital StatsFull NameLester William LylesNicknameLessy, Thing, BearBirthdate7/22/84Height/Weight5'6 / 117-120Where was he born?Valencia, I think..Where does he live now?ActonHow far away from you does he live?20 mi. The Two of YouWhere/How did you meet?The fountain in front of ( Read more... )

So he says to me "Ya know, it's your fault for the way your life has turned out." He's right. I do this to myself.

C0rpseInMyCloset [4:16 AM]: i miss hearing "i love you" i haven't heard those words in nearly 2 years. i say it to les, and get no reply. and i'll only say it to friends i really care about.. like you. sometimes i worry about you. :o ( Read more... )