I can clearly see how unbelievably pathetic I was, but when I step back from the big picture what is my live journal, I see that I really am pathetic. I live in this surrealistic world, where I desperately try to live out fairytales. Tonight as I was driving home from Sadie's get-together, I felt the need to cry, but I couldn't! It's as though my ( Read more... )

According to Freud, "we" retreat back to the time and place we felt the safest. My lover is my safe place. I can't remember a time when I felt the safest or most comfortable with someone. Lately, I've been trying to get out of my house as much as possible, my parents aren't really getting along, and my dad makes me want to kill myself. I have my ( Read more... )

... I'm pleased to report that things are going beautifully. I haven't felt so happy in such a long time, happiness is almost refreshing. Last weekend was a fun time. I was out with friends and feeling lonely, so Amy's boyfriend, Alexis was gracious enough to purchase chocolate milk to cheer me up. Shannon and I were in the same mood, I suppose. ( Read more... )

I enjoy getting blamed for the insecurities of others. "ohh boo hoo, you're talking shit about me." hahahah umm no, go harrass the other 238423894728347 people that talk shit about you, i don't have a fucking crush on you.

Last night, Jaimee, Amy, Lester, and I went to the glasshouse to see Kill Hannah/18v/and HIM play. I expected to see Jordan and Dennis because I had talked to Jordan earlier and he said he'd be there, but I wasn't expecting to see Jeff Waldock. I haven't seen him in over 6 months, he's the last person to say "goodbye" to me. I was talking with ( Read more... )

Forever is in your eyes. I know it's selfish of me to walk this earth and not look a single soul in their eyes, for the fear of what I may find. I don't want to find it, because its already been found... You're all I want, You're all I need. I'm still hanging on <3

I don't understand. He cares but being with me is something he CANNOT do. I was given a momentary chance, and the fact that I was quickly replaced leaves me feeling extremely bitter and it says NOTHING about me. To hear him say "I miss you" is like a knife to the throat. AND again I ask myself *if he cares so much about you Vanessa, why does he ( Read more... )

1. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER ~ The Girl Nextdoor ( Read more... )

If someone were to strike you, would you fight back or would you just let it happen? Today, a comment was made about Jaimee and I, a comment that was completely uncalled for. We just did what was natural, we defended ourselves. Now Lester is upset at us for offending Carali - I'm just glad that I was not the one to instigate the "massacre." Carali ( Read more... )

I slept in until 4, then I decided it'd be a good thing to get up and get ready, so I did. I met my new best friend Brett at Del Taco, he's such a doll - I'm keepin' him in a cage. We watched Drop Dead Fred and American Psycho and we both chuckled our asses off because we couldn't stop quoting Family Guy or saying "yeowah weiawd!" --- Then this kid ( Read more... )