[love] : sunsets in the graveyard. way too many bracelets on one wrist. ice cream. darkness. stars. poetry. sunflowers + daisies. thinking of forever. red nailpolish. great hair days. nighttime. halloween. compliments for no reason. doing things at random. writing. succeeding. being held so close that life can be heard. sleeping in. robbie. going ( Read more... )

I've never told anyone this really. A week before Lester and I met, I wrote this in my journal : [1.27.04] [ God, Please bless me with a person with long flowing, dark hair, eyes as bright as the clearest night sky, a smile I can fall in love with everytime I see it. Please bring me a boy that I can call the love of my life. Someone who will ( Read more... )

I'll slit my wrists and bleed my life away before your eyes. My screams of agony will grace your ears merely as whispers. My touch feels like a breeze. I'm nothing more than a ghost in your presence. I could give you all of the stars in the heavens, all of the love in my heart - and still it'd never be enough. Today, will be the last day I fall to ( Read more... )

Notice me ( Read more... )

C0rpseInMyCloset (10:25:33 AM): i love robbie though ( Read more... )

He's the only one I see in the darkness. My fears have emerged from whence they were contained. I dread every waking day for the mere fact I cannot see light any longer. My dreams crushed, my heart in ruins, my mind tormented of what might have been, what could have been - but I'll never know. The unknown is what I fear, mon tresor, it is also what ( Read more... )

[its like you once were blanketed with a serene passion throughout every inch of you physically and mentally and spiritually and now you are left naked and alone.. i wish i could tell you one day it will be better or "time will heal all" but i dont think it will. no matter how much progression you think you have made in healing.. one tiny fucking ( Read more... )

I am the idol everyone has created for themselves. People have been feeding my ego for as long as I can remember - the way I am now is due to all the compliments, and all the ego boosting, I've taken to heart. Created to cause fear, jealousy, and anger. I'm not liked because of this - relationships don't work out because it's always about "i, i, i ( Read more... )

Well, I've done it this time. It's over, and I'm the one to blame. My misery, unhappiness, and constant gloomy disposition drove you insane. I was only miserable when you weren't around - when I could no longer even hear your voice -when I didn't even know whether you were alive or dead. We only just begun, the fact that you are so willing to give ( Read more... )

I just don't understand anymore. What is so wrong with me? I have a personality that draws people in and pushes them away. All the times I struggled to hold on to relationships that were never really there, that hurt when I was just tossed to the side like yesterday's garbage - but I've worked so hard for this, and I'm still struggling to keep it ( Read more... )