Yesterday, I wasn't in such a great mood. I took 3 vicodin on an empty stomach and payed for it greatly later on in the evening. I made the mistake of calling Lester when I was feeling really honest - telling him of how much I loathe one of his friends and what not. I was such a raging bitch. I don't like bringing him down when I'm in a terrible ( Read more... )

X2xInnocentx2X [3:04 PM]: what are you up to ( Read more... )

Oh why cant I be what you need ( Read more... )

When has caring for someone immensely been so horrible? I care for Lester and only Lester, I share my feelings with no one else. why can't that be enough even if it's not mutual?... I HATE, ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATE how Abby referred to this as an "infatuation" - she has no fucking clue as to what it feels like to lose, to feel what it is to be alone ( Read more... )

This feeling I feel is unlike anything i've ever felt in my life. The emotional pain is far more greater than any wound I've ever carried in my flesh. The pain you've inflicted starts from the bone and devours its way out, until I am nothing. These preposterous thoughts, ideas, and words that come out of my mouth flow through my mind like styx. ( Read more... )

... The heart is the heaviest burden to carry. It feels. Sometimes it feels too much, too hard, too deeply. Too soon. . . It causes you to think things, say things, and do things.. Things that will eventually cause it to break into pieces. My heart - is so heavy, just aching to break, sometimes i feel as though it's going to burst from my chest, it ( Read more... )

Sleep has been hard to come by for the past 4 days.. Today, I smiled for him - even though I was exhausted and I was going to a funeral. So, I was sitting in mass and something caught my attention. It was a statue of a man on a horse slaying a dragon with a spear, and under it were words in Italian. I was able to translate some of it, and I figured ( Read more... )

XXblacqXwingsXX: i suppose i could say you are the last act of grasciousness granted to a dying soul ( Read more... )

Death is inevitable, there is no escaping it. Afterall, that is why you live. - to be born, live, then die. The thought of death plagues me, I am terrified to die, so terrified that sometimes I just want to end it all myself so death won't have its way with me. With everything horrible going on around me, there is but one person to ease my fears. ( Read more... )

he described our first kiss in one word, 'oblivion.' - the state of becoming forgetful. i never thought of oblivion, probably because i'm not as brilliant as he, i was thinking maybe 'amazing' or 'incredible' but 'oblivion' is by far the best.