Well..it seems, I have to truly find myself before I can really progress. I don't want to end my habits, my obsession over my weight, my judgments, my opinions, my never-ending search of self. But it doesn't seem like I can keep this up, and continue to move towards what I want. Lately I have finally gotten back on track, and I'm not giving it up ( Read more... )

Well, I really should be getting ready for school...but I love a little bit of good procrastination ( Read more... )

Well I have mainly been operating from my brother's computer this week. That sucked. Mine was "in the shop" I guess you could say. It's had this habit of being a bitch lately...finally decided to get it fixed 8D ( Read more... )

Been awhile ( Read more... )

Well ( Read more... )

My, oh my, it's been too long! D:

Got back on Sunday, then went to Sarah's. That was a mistake. Oh well. I'm working on it now. I treadmilled today, and stayed below 400 cals. But this is still so disheartening. Fuck.

Oh well. Now I have to go catch up on all that I've missed while I was gone. :B

G'Night. <3

Fuck.
Mom's not coming till 6, Dad's about to "fire up the grill." He wants to make me eat bratwurst. Oh for the love of God..there is no chance in hell I would even lay my eyes upon such a disgusting creation. Not now anyways. ;D

I mean I wonder just how many calories are in a brautwurst..I bet it's enough to like feed a small nation. Hmm. Eck.

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Well, I think I am about to go home. I'm not sure. I hear Dad in the living room yelling at all the realtors. Him and Cindy are about to buy another house, and the realtors are being gay ( Read more... )

Well..I haven't really slept all night..just kind of, been sitting here. Oh well. Anyways. Oh yes! Hart called me about 10 minutes ago.. wanting to come hangout. I mean I don't want to go all "7th grade" and think this means anything, but I can only hope that it means he wants to be extremely close friends again. But I could be completely wrong ( Read more... )

Now I am officially addicted to Blonde Redhead & The Blood Brothers.. and I hope I don't sound like all of those people that are like.."OH EM GEE I LOVE THAT BAND" after only hearing them once..but I have only heard them once. And I love them. Hmm..

Ha. <3.