I hate myself so increduously. I mean I'm about to burst into tears just thinking about what a huge failure I am.. I hate this so bad, and thinking about this only magnifies my worst fears, that I am putting on weight and that I am "normal" size..oh my god..I just can't take this...NORMAL SIZE..WHAT THE FUCK ( Read more... )

Well, so far today has been rather unproductive ( Read more... )

Travess, whom I adore & is the only person I truly enjoy talking to on AIM, has presently got me waiting on him to sign back on. He said that he would be back in about 10 minutes, but that was at 9:40...hah. Yeah..chances are good he got high and then decided to go sit in the road, or by the lake, or something. He tends to do that ( Read more... )

Hart came over today.. I've noticed lately we're kind of..drifting apart, and that dissapoints/saddens/depresses me. Regardless, we did have a pretty good time. Just sat on the porch and talked, and he smoked, and we kind of just looked at each other knowing the other one has realized things aren't quite the same anymore. That kid used to make my ( Read more... )

Alright, alright ( Read more... )

Umm..oh yes, yesterday I went to Target (as I mentioned in my last post) anyways,I was browsing through the shoes section and was uber-surprised to find that their shoe department has really gotten a lot better...not necessarily better quality, but definitely cuter. ;D . I found this adorable pair of espadrilles (CHEAP) and several pairs of flip- ( Read more... )

I miss my lost hour of sleep :0 ( Read more... )

I'm done. I'm so over Sarah's shit. It's not even funny anymore. I'm so fucking tired of this. I hate her. I hate this. I hate myself. So much for one of dearest friends.

Fuck her. Fuck her shit. Fuck this..

Ok..uh..went to my friends house Thursday night..came home Friday..found that my brother had 4 of his supa-hawt friends over here..haha..um..got all prettied up (to the best of my ability) and found that I had nowhere to go..and all the hot boys had left ( Read more... )

Heh. Something is wrong. Not sure..exactly of what. Something inside is going all..stupid. Whatever. Anyways ( Read more... )