add on to last entry: it hurts to know that someone thinks i would do anything harmful to someone that i love so much.....

today was just one of those days where everything goes wrong...... it just got progressively worse and worse. to top it all off coles mom like hates me now for reasons that are either untrue or not my fault. she thinks that im manipulating cole... to be honest i have no clue how to even go about manipulating a person in the first place. it just ( Read more... )

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh confliction

i feel sick and all i can think about is cole and how horrible i am and every second i just hope that he'll forgive me and call me. i just cant do anything when this kind of stuff happens because all i do is think about him. its just this horrible pain in my chest... i just cant concentrate at all and its just killing me... and its my fault and i ( Read more... )

i dont know what to think... i dont know how to feel.... i really just dont know

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

life... well life is a funny thing... it always seems to suprise me.

i cant afford to lose cole... i just cant. at this point in my life i dont know what i'd do without knowing that i can always turn to him for help. hes just like my best friend and i cant even explain how much he means to me... like whenever im feeling down it always makes me feel better to talk to him. he's the only one that can really make me ( Read more... )