i started talking to eddie again. only because eric and i arent talking. eddie is my rebound from my rebound. haha.. eric makes me so sad, hes back with sarah and shes home from school.. just makes me sick.. but eddie is being fine ( Read more... )

i turned 19 on thursday.. it was good.. well shitty but i made the best of it.. i ended up blacking out and having sex with jon.. first time blacking out like that..

i went home this weekend, my grandpa bougth me an ipod.. its pretty cool..

eric and i are growing apart and it hurts :(

on wednesday! they were amazing, again. we hung out, again. pure sex. the singer from madina lake kissed my neck, bit it a little bit.. i almost died.. it was amazing.. the higher was so good, their bass player freaked me the fuck out though.. and the boys after, AHAHA ive met them before, at parties.. but halifax was just, truely amazing.. i sang ( Read more... )

SO last night was Suburban Legends.. amazing as always.. I cant wait to see them again ( Read more... )

since my last update.. and yet, the world has changed once again ( Read more... )

fuck maybe if i updated more things would be the way i wanted them to be ( Read more... )

is this week. its been cool. im not speaking to eric anymore. me, him, brian, keith, rachel and des went to the casino last night.. brian won me 65 dollars.. then i lost it.. so i wasnt out anything.. me and des are going to santa cruz this weekend, it should be fun..

eddie and i are so close to where i want to be, so close

not a whole lot has changed.. well kinda..

-dont drink anymore
-dont hang out with brian/eric/rachel anymore
-got my monroe.
-tim left for the air force.
-jon wont look at me anymore.
-eddie broke my heart, but that was expected.
-john cat is talking to me again, which is good..

yeah, so spring break is next week..

i almost screwed myself this weekend.. i had a date with john, then found out tim was coming to chico, and all the while i was talking to eddie.. but i didnt screw myself over, i just screwed everything up.. john hates me, tim didnt come and eddie was too hurt to move from TOC ( Read more... )

someone stole my bike ( Read more... )