ok i was 16 or 17 when i wrote this shit and now im 20 years old and heres my update. I had Topher, we were together for about 4 months then things went bad. Im still not over him and now i honestly know that i will never fall out of love with him. I havent even found anyone who comes close to topher. I really dont think im going to find anyone ( Read more... )

Wow i was one depressed ANGRY little girl in 2006 lol i just read all of my post and there all about being pissed off and depressed and i hate myself and blah blah blah. Its hilarious. Ya i have a job now and a car and great friends and im getting my own place. No boyfriend and still waiting for topher but im in a better state of mind now. Im not ( Read more... )

Yep still fighting for him but gettin somewhere:)

How am i in the same possision as every entry ive writtin in this journal?? I really hate life. im still fighting for topher..........................................................................................................................

ok.... so i met this extremely hott guy Chris.. i thought he was absolutley perfect he was everything i was looking for he was sweet and everything didnt even want any other girl but me... then boom one night he said he doesnt want to hurt me and were moving too fast and he just wants to be friends.... i havent talked to him since and that was ( Read more... )

i cant do this anymore! im so sick of feeling this way i want to be happy more than anything it kills me so bad to see him especally with another girl. i know hes not going to be with her for long it just hurts so bad right now. i feel he doesnt care anymore and he should cause thats how it has been for 4 years and thats how its always goin to be

my life is like a freakin rollercoaster!!!I hate this its emotionally damaging me and i cant take it. i came home from school today cause i felt like i couldnt be in public and now i dont even want to leave my house?? what the hell is going on....... I HATE staying in one spot for an HOUR and now i dont wanna go anywhere? im so confused! I want to ( Read more... )

well my life is showing its ups now:) Im in modeling(one of the most important things to me in life) and im having a blast with it so far. umm the whole guy situation isnt good at all right now. Im kinda wanting a boyfriend but then again i dont really have time for one unless he wants to fallow me around to every crazy place i go. Stevens being ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do im stuck.... one part of my mind says fuck it let them go out i cant stop anything obviously.I can try to move on.maybe hes not for me. ill just stop talking to both of them and let them have there way..... shes the first one on his top and ive never been on his im not on anyones top not even mikes not robbys i guess im ( Read more... )

Life is just way to fucking confusing for me!!i used to have to fake my smiles from being so depressed. then i didnt have to fake anything i was back to my normal happy outgoing extatic girl NOW im back to the depressed fake genni. im sick of faking smiles around him he knows anyways i cant fake shit around him he always fucking knows whats wrong ( Read more... )