you make me nauseous

why do you feel the need to change, mild, conform to the people surrounding you. stop doing what isn't you. stop being someone youre not. please. youre leaving ones who loved you for who you were, and not for who you are now. is it because you feel the need to fit in; to be liked? because if you have to change to please 'friends' cause they don't ( Read more... )

today SUCKED.

R.I.P. Little Bit

to start from the beginning... last school year around marching band season, i started to get really bad headaches. a few people remember me getting them. but it wasnt from too much caffine, not enough water, or not enough sleep, or anything relating. no one knew what was causing them, but my dad being extremely anti-doctor, told me to suck it up, ( Read more... )

ive been getting REALLY bad headaches a lot. and i havent been taking tylenol for it or anything because i dont want to become immune and end up needing to take more. but they just keep getting worse. it is up to at least one a day. some people think i should get it checked out, but its happened before. and lasted about three months. so i dont know ( Read more... )

band and drumline used to be my escape. my catharsis. and now it seems to be added to the list of things that just stress me out.

drumline was a hobby of mine. and i mean that it was. certain people have turned drumline into a job, and not something i do because i enjoy it. it has become a chore and a task instead of an avocation.

and now it seems ( Read more... )

bumbed down.
replaced.
forgotten.
and moved to third wheel.

never saw it coming.

i feel like i dont know you anymore.
and it REALLY hurts.

brandonbrandonbrandon.
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he cares about me and is there for me. he has helped me through hell. no joke.

but.

i find it amusing youre still living the life of blaming other people. hate. it is such a strong word. and oh so closely related to love. just wake up and look at what is really happening. life isnt centered around you. i didnt make anyone ( Read more... )

youre a very interesting person.

i just wish i knew what you were thinking half the time.