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received my first (and possibly only) college acceptance letter today.
Redlands.
thats very good news. and somewhat promising.
yet, im so down about financial junk right now that i cant even get excited.
i think once i get the fafsa and profile done, i'll feel better about everything in general.

but, congrats to me i suppose. :]

tonight it became abundantly clear how completely my future lies solely in my hands.

heres to making it on my own.

im a little late with the crazy new years entry ( Read more... )

i am not in the least bit tired. i wasnt on the drive home. i wasnt in the bathroom stall. i wasnt going pee either. i was standing, staring at the wall and the paper filled toilet and feeling fucking sorry for myself. so dont feel sorry for me. because i dont deserve it. i decided in my fuckin idiot head, that i could not have fun. i didnt try. i ( Read more... )

today work, shop, shop, slap some bitches, feel alright.
yesterday shop, shop, shop, eat, dance, act as freak/loser magnet.
coming up work, gay, dance, dance, dance, wrap, EAT, and fuck.

sometimes i wonder if im missing out on the best thing ( Read more... )

too, too shaming ( Read more... )

very random weekend.
especially yesterday, the whole day was out of control.
shopping in the rain...not so much.

i look like a battered wife. my left arm is a mass of bruises.
no exaggeration.

pretty much finished my Redlands app.
1 down, how many to go?

opening night wednesday....come support !

i just watched FEAR. god that movie is some kind of awesome. or is it ( Read more... )