just now as i was sitting down to write about my exciting life this older lady just came to the door and knocked and then i answered it and she just walked right on in as if i knew who she was. and she laughing and greeting me, and i said "uh..who are you" and then she laughed histrarically and pulled out a switchblade and and then i kicked her in ( Read more... )

today was a good day for me. kara left the house!!! she went out shopping with me, aaron, and nett and we even went to lunch AND SHE TALKED!!! i know i'm getting my hopes up, and she will not leave for months again but a girl can dream. i'm weirded out by myself, because to be honest in the last year i honestly only read one book the entire way ( Read more... )

so yah obviously i haven't been on this damn sight in ages. i didn't even know i still had an account, but kara's been on it so when i came home tonight i checked it out, and i read all my back entries. i have changed so much it is just unreal, i don't feel like i have but reading my old thoughts it's just weird. thinking about how me and gnick use ( Read more... )

I'll be leaving for California tomorow, I'm really nervous. I haven't seen anyone for over a year. I don't know if anyone will like me anymore. I just wish Air was still there, her and Mini me are all I give a fuck about anyway, so I'm really just making this trip for Mini me. I will miss Gnick so much. We've been together alot lately. His mom has ( Read more... )

Well, it's 7 in the morning, I had to be in at work at 6 and me and some other co-workers waited in the parking lot for an hour, because no fucking managers came in to unlock the doors. Finally, when someone came, they told us we didn't even have to be there til 10:30. So fuck it, I can't go back to sleep now. Casey's wedding was the other day, it ( Read more... )

I got a car!!! My first car ever, and then the night after, I got my first ticket! DAMN THE LUCK! me and gnick are doing good though. 50 times better then when we were going out, haha. i'm going to be leaving for ohio and tennessee wednesday, a few days after i get back i leave for california. so i won't be seeing him much, i really don't want to ( Read more... )

i ate brown mushy lettuce about 4 hours ago and woke up an hour ago sick as hell. damn the luck...or my stupid ass. anyway it's looking like slimmer and slimmer chances of getting to the city, it's really quite discouraging. and i'm bout sick of the lawton crew, they confuse the shit our of me, and cause drama amongst the group. i'm sick of drama ( Read more... )

until like 5 minutes ago i felt like my life was going somewhere and i had a bit of a direction. so gnick's got a girl all of a sudden, she's moving in with him...he's taking her to hollywood i suppose. i'm stuck in enid i suppose. it's just lame he's fuckin tellin me it's cause he thinks i don't like like him or what the fuck ever, BUT it's such ( Read more... )

workin alot today...last night gnick invited me to go see bob dylan, willie nelson, and zz top. HOW KEWL IS THAT!??! very! anyway, we also decided that we were gunna move to hollywood, i cant wait, even though it will be like years haha, it will be pimpshit thought cause his mom will pay his rent as long as he's in school and i can get a job to buy ( Read more... )

casey has woke me up before 11 two mornings in a row, if i dont pick up the phone the first 9 times, it's for a reason so dont try for a 10. i am not exadurating she called my cell 5 times then my house 5 and i finally picked up. i dont mind if she calls once, but fuckin take a hint, for fuck's sake. but anyway this journal entry is suppose to be ( Read more... )