yup yup. why the hell does everyone always pick at me when i've been having a shitty day? do i let of a vibe to make everyone want to hate me and yell at me. my mom's been trippin balls since i woke up, my dad's been freakin out before i even went to sleep, and gnick told me it'd make him oh so happy if i'd killed myself. i have a whole in my ( Read more... )

dear livejournal...i went to the city last night casey was bein a bitch, then i had to ride home with her for 2 hours, that pretty much sucked a whole lot of ass. meanwhile back n enid gnick told me i should kill myself but he's not too mad right now, he's prolly horny. he's sendin my videos n shit, tellin me to update my livejournal. i do miss him ( Read more... )

wednesday, the last day we had to go to school, we were driving up i was filled with antisipation so glad this was the last day and as we approach the school i see 2 big abulances three or four cop cars in the front of the school and as we get closer we see a group of people sounding somebody on the ground. and that's when i saw jennifer's car ( Read more... )

so this weekend was good times...ended pretty fast, but still was good. friday went to the reckroom, for non-okies the reckroom is a gay rave club kinda thing. it was my first time it was so much fun, afterwards andrew and alan gave us a ride to aarons to stay the night. gosh let me tell ya alan is HILARIOUS when he's drunk. so at aarons we stayed ( Read more... )

im talkin to the one n only tey tey, he cracks up my soul! last night i talked to kayla for a while if all goes right she will come for spring break! omg i would be such a baby and cry i love her so much. i also talked to mark turner and zack i miss so many people it makes me so sad, but i gotta make due with what i have, and i have some pretty fun ( Read more... )

why is it that people here (in oklahoma) live with there parents til they're like 30 but in california they moved out the day of 18 practically, and california is deathly more expensive. i just think that's a little odd. i dont think there's anything wrong with living with your parents..if mine were a lil more leaniant i'd live with them til i died ( Read more... )

i can honestly say that i hate myself right now. i hate when people call me stupid, I FUCKING HATE IT! esspecially somebody i love. i feel like a 4 year old girl and her mom is telling her she hates her.i feel so weak. i hate that he's smart and he's insulting me with words i dont know the meanings of which makes me feel stupider. i've never ( Read more... )

everyone else is makin an entry for valentine's day. so i guess im a follower eh? this cook at work made me a heart shaped box full of candy he made and gave me a real nice card. it was soooo fuckin sweet. i kinda feel like a bitch but i really aint dating right now, and if i was he's kewl but...he's really goody like..wally clever like. i had to ( Read more... )

i hate myself for feeling as bad as i do. it's been years and the thoughts that go through my head aren't logical, and i know this as i think them but it doesnt matter i keep thinking and it's all getting to be too much. i want to go i want to go to three oaks, or madison and i wanna go to river run and hang out outside the pool. i wanna walk ( Read more... )

these pictures are from my adventures in the city...goodtimes

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