Holy crap. I am seriously considering dropping out of college. Soon. Like within weeks. Why do I fail so hard.

Well, today started strong and very ambitious on my part. Too bad like ten tiny things backfired and I'm a sensitive suck and now I feel like shit.

I made my appointment tomorrow to talk about dropping a class. Hopefully if the adviser understands she'd be willing to talk to my mom. I also made another appointment with our counseling services to try and find a new shrink.

Now I'm in the library feeling nervous as heck and downing a bottle of water cos this is embarrassing.

Sometimes I wonder if my mom truly ever regrets birthing me ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do. I just want to be in bed forever. I just want to tell my parents not to worry and to tell my friends that they would seriously be better off without my friendship. I want to drop out of school and just waste away in bed. I feel like I'm failing as a person. Unpacking is too overwhelming, going to class is too overwhelming, ( Read more... )

I can't do this I can't do this I can't do this. I began feeling better recently but yesterday out of nowhere I tanked and now I'm in pain and I can't stop crying (again) and I feel hopeless and losing the somewhat peaceful state my family is in and my best friends seems inevitable. I hate life. I can't focus in school and I'm going to fail and it ( Read more... )

Can it be 11:00pm or something so I can justify going to sleep? Can't go on like this.

I wish I weren't so anxious and could initiate plans with my friends in Philadelphia :\

I'm so miserable here. I want to wither away. I want to go away. I hate it here. I hate everything.

I tried to eat like I normally do and now I'm basically waiting to puke. I'm so overwhelmed with classes and it's the second week of school. I wish I could drop out. I wish I weren't financially invested in this. I can't believe I'm saying that I don't want to be in college. I think I'm going to stick it out this year since I have my apartment and ( Read more... )