I'm worried that I'll need to break it off with both of my friends soon. That breaks my heart, but maybe life will be a littlelot easier for them.

I just threw up the only thing I ate today. great.

So far this week's been really hard. I can't stop worrying and panicking about some stuff I talked to my friends about. I've lost the ability to go "okay I'll relax and we'll see what happens." I'm paranoid and upset and I get nervous in every class and cry all the time almost everywhere. I can't really articulate how much it hurts but I'm in a lot ( Read more... )

something's happening to me that no one would understand except me and I wish I had someone to talk to about it with who wouldn't yell at me.

Things my doctor said to me while prescribing me medicine:

"Are you pregnant?"
"Your brain is broken"
"Don't get mad at me if these make you want to jump off a bridge"

...Wahoo.

Things I tried to eat today:

Chick fil a chicken nuggets as a treat to feel better. I ate them all but it took like an hour.

Coffe, tea, tea, tea.

That it feels impossible for me to relax and believe that there's gonna be anything good about this year. I'm sure my classes will help but I feel really lonesome and and I have a huge chip on my shoulder where ever I go cos of the depression. I'm stuck with a bunch of fears that this is only a little chunk of the inevitable huge depression wave ( Read more... )

I'm so happy that I got housing and that financial aid ended up being minimally stressful. I'm stoked, thankful, appreciative, and all those other synonyms that I was employed and that I've spent almost everyday with a friend. I wish I had saw my dad more, but it was nice of my mom and my stepfather to keep the lame stuff to a minimum ( Read more... )

I should be excited to move into my apartment but the costs are starting to get high and I'm beginning to feel really overwhelmed and sick. I hate money.

I've been emailing and calling realtors out the wazoo almost everyday all summer now ( Read more... )

on securing housing. It just continues to be disappointing and frustrating. Whenever I look at the calendar and stare at the threeish weeks left until school my heart sinks and I begin to feel a panic coming on. I've been trying to cram my time with as much socialization and reading as possible because whenever I'm alone I become really upset and ( Read more... )