because apparently i am the cancer of all relationships. no matter how hard i try they always come crashing down in front of me. i dont want to be home alone tonight. i dont want to accept that we're actually over. i just keep wanting to wake up in the morning and everything be ok. i just want to fast forward to the part where i stop missing you ( Read more... )

i'm trying to keep myself from vomiting and crashing to the floor in tears again. i've never felt like i had to be this strong before i really don't want to be. i didn't want to do all this alone, i wasn't ready. i still love you so much and i know you love me too. there are so many things i want to say but only time will make anything better again ( Read more... )

sobriety is a magical thing ( Read more... )

past....ive grown weary of you.

i finally got all my bank shit taken care of. yayayayay!

its been a hell of a ride. im getting off at the next stop.

You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back
Well, it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening by the morning's such a drag

so I'd prefer to be ( Read more... )

tomorrow is the big day! little lee gets to play grownup in her very own apartment. it is exactly 1/2 block from katy. sleep today, move tomorrow, settle sunday. ahhhh. the weekend is finally here.

i wish all my favorite songs werent my favorite songs because they remind me of my life ( Read more... )

do you ever just keep rubbing your face and eyes and hope that when your done everything will have changed?

the only thing i have to prove to myself that im not insane is that insane people dont know that they are insane.

exactly an hour and a half before i can call into work. cant sleep tonight, cant handle working 8 hours tomorrow ( Read more... )

morning. wake up ( Read more... )