well its 1 in the morning and i can't sleep which sucks because i have to get up at 5 so bleh..i purged again today for like 20 mins, but tomorrow im going back to restricting and hardcore workouts, i want this so bad.. and its killing me that ive gotten weak. i know i can do this, ive done it so well before, i just need to focus and stop letting ( Read more... )

yay for me i made it to hour 22 of my fast (im tryin to go all weekend) *does a lil dance* it doesn't seem like much but i ususally ruin my fasts coz i get migraines so bad i have to eat so i don't like kill over..i'm over the first day hunger and no headaches yet =) hopefully the gram doesn't notice i haven't eaten and start in or else my fast is ( Read more... )

things just seem to be going downhill for me right now...i've been getting horrible migraines like 2 days a week and even the neurologist can't figure out what's wrong with me, and he freakin put me on Elavil i guess it's supossed to prevent the headaches and help me sleep..o yeah and i haven't been able to sleep which is a real prob coz i end up ( Read more... )

so ive been having probs lately...im getting migraines all the time and the doctors cant figure out why...even the neurologist has no clue whats wrong with me..im so frusterated...but im starting this diet challenge on thursday so maybe losing some pounds will make me feel better...im so dissapointed with myself ive gained weight and its making me ( Read more... )

This is the perfect me...my ultimate goals

-1oo lbs
-hair to the middle of my back
-perfect tan
-i want people to describe me as "beautiful and thin"

im fasting all weekend starting tomorrow..this fat is driving me crazy..ill die if i dont get rid of it soon!

i worked out pretty hard this morning and burt off over 300 calories which is good and i've been fasing all day..it feels great..but i ate yesterday and i hated it so much i purged a lot last night and the scary thing is i was pretty good at it...i don't want to be one of those people who looses control and then has to purge a lot (nothing against ( Read more... )

Damn those poofy cheetoes will be the death of me! I ate like 200 cals of those friggin things..they are the devil in cheese form! Thank goodness I didn't eat anything else today or i'd be going even crazier than I am now! I'm hitting the gym at 5:30 before class and working my chunky butt off! I am determined to hit 120 next week.... hopefully ( Read more... )

so i jogged/walked like 4 miles today and all i ate was some sugar free jello 10 cals-yum!)..i feel so much better..i feel like im regaining my control and i love it...its amazing how much i love the feeling of having my stomach empty...eewww being full just disgusts me...120 by monday...4 lbs to go...

OMG ater the weekend I had I was so worried about geting on the scale coz i knew i prob gained weight...i never thought id say this but im lucky i caught the flu, i was so sick last night that when i got on the scale this morning i had actually lost a pound! so i guess im saved this time but i will never break down and eat that much EVER again...im ( Read more... )

omg i feel so horrible i just want to crawl in a hole and die...i had to eat yesterday because i couldn't get out of going to dinner with my family...and of course i freakin caught the flu and my stomach feels so horrible that i had to eat so i would feel better...now i feel like such a cow i just want to kill over...im starting a fast tomorrow and ( Read more... )