I hate when I get like this. I can't sleep, my mind is racing. I keep thinking about the past, and how things have changed. I can't focus on the future. What if..what if..what if.. I don't have enough time...enough time for what? I don't have enough time to figure out what I want before I leave. i need something..or someone..what though.

cashmere or no cashmere? it kind of feels as though the true summer can't begin until i breath cashmere air. also, it can't begin until i'm not working which will be in two weeks. yes.

Medical places in general make me uneasy. So do shots and awkward questions.

I feel like an old me and I don't like it. This is what happens when I'm alone, I question things and think about all of the what ifs...why can't I just be happy with what I have..

So I finally graduated high school. It's so weird that it's completely over. It still feels as though it's just the usual summer break and I'll be back in the fall. Instead I'll be in California...which I guess I'm looking forward too, but I get homesick really easily, so it will be hard ( Read more... )

It was the first day of spring today. I went on a picknic at Gassworks park with Micah and Tyler. It was really fun and we ate a bunch of junk food and had a goldfish cracker fight. I'm looking forward to the warmer and nice weather ( Read more... )

my aunt makes me wish i enjoyed life more.

it's sunny out. i wish i was doing something other than sitting in my house.

i feel really low today...i'm not sure why.

it seems like i've been in such a pissed off mood lately. it's annoying, i hate being annoyed and angry with people ( Read more... )

So...I'm going to try and update this a little more. So I'm stage manager for Footloose and it's actually pretty fun. It's mainly been writing down all the blocking and typing up a bunch of stuff and taking role, but it's fun and something I've never done before. We've been working on Mr. Irrisistable, but it's stressing me out and I don't really ( Read more... )

Once again...all previous entries deleted. That wasn't my life anymore. Why is it that change happens so slowly that you don't notice it until your life is drastically changed and it seems like nothing is the same.

Its a disgusting feeling when you realize your not as important in people's lives as they are in yours.