sooo frustrated right now... i have sooo much homework to do, but i can't do it because everyone is so FUCKING loud here... my roommate and her friend are sitting on the futon screaming and giggling over boys... and the girls across the hall are blasting weird music... and there are people running up and down the hall.... right now i really wish i ( Read more... )

its been a while since i've written... i'm at school now. things are going well... i'm really scared that i am going to fuck everything up again but i am trying my hardest so that it does not happen. i am missing ryan like crazy! he was here last weekend and is hopefully coming up again this weekend, i'm excited. laura and i get along great and ( Read more... )

so as of last night... ryan and i are "officially" together :) really sucks that i'm leaving in like 2 weeks but i think we can handle it... i'm not THAT far away. oh yeah- i'm not going back to school til the 21st, kinda sucks cuz i don't get a week there to just relax, but i don't really mind cuz i have more time with my friends here, my fam, ( Read more... )

so basically i screwed up again... yea i know- what else is new.... but parents are really upset this time, and honestly i don't think its THAT big of a deal... they are pissed because i stopped going/quite my job at connies. i understand why they are upset at me but i really think that they overreacted. my dad threatened to not let me go back to ( Read more... )

haste the day and glasseater are both coming to iowa city the first week i'm back... i am sooooo excited :)

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nenaw and joe are the sweetest people on earth. they gave me a BEAUTIFUL necklace for my birthday plus $50! the necklace is gold has 3 heart shaped rubys in a vertical line with little diamonds in between!! i love it... I LOVE BIRTHDAYS!!

going out for an early birthday dinner with the 'rents to Benihana tonight, super excited for that!!

last night was kinda random... but it was so nice too. i had forgotten how happy he makes me... i'm paying for it now though since he went home at 5 and i am up now to go to work at 9, gotta love working ALL day on 3 hours of sleep- it was worth it though.

we've been talking about it all through emails and i really hope that we can work stuff out. i don't want our friendship to end, but i didn't know how else to get through to her cuz when i have brought things up in the past, i don't think things have changed. now i don't think i am perfect or anything... i know that i have made many mistakes in ( Read more... )

god is amazing!!

ps- i smoked my last cigarette tonight- we'll see how i actually do though!!