I hate being sick. I feel like shit. I haven't done a thing all day. 

The wall is crumbling back down to the dirt it started from. I'm standing here watching it fall completely paralyzed, unable to do anything about it. My emotions are running wild and I'm not feeling so confident anymore ( Read more... )

Whew, what a weekend.

I need sleep.

It's negative five degrees outside right now. It's so comforting to be at home when it's this cold out. I can sit on the computer in my warm room. When I get tired of that I can mosey on over to my warm pillow top, down topper, comforter cornucopia of pillows fortress! 

If you don't care about me anymore, please don't act like it. Don't lead me on and keep my hope going. I have feelings whether you want to believe it or not.

I love you and all you can seem to do is ignore that.

 It's weird to finally take a step back and look at myself. To dissect everything I really am. I feel that throughout my life I've spent a lot of time thinking quite negativly of myself, but not with any genuine reason. Recently I've started giving myself more leeway. I've become more forgiving of my faults and I believe I'm really starting to ( Read more... )

-Pillow top down comforter
-Sims Life Stories
- Red and black Nintendo DS
-Cooking Mama 2: Dinner with Friends
-Sims 2 Castaway (Which I LOVE)
-Gamestop, Target, Boarders Giftcards
-Makeup Box
-Lost Season 3
-Hello Kitty Lamp

I really don't want to face how much this hurts. How it's constantly on my mind, and I really don't think there's anything I can do. I just have to take it in and deal with it. Play the waiting game.

Some recent news:
I'm done drinking.
I have an interview to be a nanny on Friday.
I should be done with treatment and probation soon.
I'm volunteering on ( Read more... )

My Christmas List (I'm bored, shut up!):
-Pink Nintendo DS
    Games: DK: Jungle Climber, Final Fantasy XII, Cooking Mama 2, Hotel Dusk: Room 215 (Really really want this one...), Super Mario Bros,         Super Princess Peach, Animal Crossing, The Sims: Castaway and Trace Memory.
-Six Feet Under compete series
-Lost: The Complete Third Season
-It's ( Read more... )

Had an interview at the Valley West GameStop yesterday. I think it went pretty well. Thai's friend does the hiring so it looks pretty good. The bad part is they have to talk to the district manager to see if they can hire me because I have a misdemeanor... It's funny that due to being on probation I'm supposed to be getting a job, but now it's ( Read more... )