I just filled out an application to GameStop. It's time to stop sitting around being a scrub and get a job. I need to start supporting my boyfriend, heh.

If I can be genuinely happy it would be due to one thing; people. If I didn't have my friends, family and just random strangers I couldn't do it. I wouldn't have survived this weekend. Honestly I owe you all more than you will ever know. I hope that somehow I can repay you. Through pain or whatever else it is that you need ( Read more... )

Sunday, Monday and Tuesday were probably on my top list of painful days. It really made me realize that I am near incapable of dealing with strong painful emotions. It made me feel more pathetic than I would like to admit ( Read more... )

The feeling of being alone.
completely and totally alone.
no one to let you rest your head on their shoulder.
not a soul to listen to your sob story.
no single person you know will be there forever.

if this is eternity, where are my eternal friends?

Its those two day crying spouts that fuck you over the most. They spring on you without you even second guessing it, and it seems near impossible to fix. Maybe it's just the fact that I'm a girl, but I'd like to say without bragging that I really don't cry that often. But more often than not, if I cry you can take a stab in the dark at why; boys ( Read more... )

I AM!

A question(s) for myself...

Where is your life going?
When will you start letting people help you?
When will you let go of the past?
When will you grow to become the person you COULD become?

Kaleen, when will you be who I want you to be?

Please tell me.

cranberry juice

not so good.

It's time.
Time to stop.
Time to start.

Time to WAKE THE FUCK UP.

I don't know where my life is heading.

Here are the facts:
-Almost no relationship with my family.
-Smoking cigarettes; I don't think I can stop.
-Soon to be going through drug treatment for a drug I could easily quit.
-Going to be going to SCAVO.
-Unemployed and completely broke.
-Single and bitchy.

I'm tired. 
I don't think I can do it anymore