You know what sucks... I think that I'm in love with the past, because I just can't seem to let it go... Every time I think about it, I get a tiny bit of hope, and I let it burn, because I don't have the balls to do anything about it, I can't get over it no matter how hard I try... I've tried to multiple times, and never once have I been ( Read more... )

Unfaithful - Rihanna ( Read more... )

Doubting yourself, and what you want, is the most horrible feeling I have ever had... Not knowing how I feel on certian things, and just being scared shitless that I'm not doing the right thing... I have doubts on everything right now... Doubts that my mom really will be okay(she just had surgery) I have always pictured my mom as living longer than ( Read more... )

Well just for Andy who's been nudging me... to UPDATE... I will... Not much has been going on, I have a car/lisence, don't know if that's new to anyone but yah... I'm looking for a job right now, and I just had an interview... I think that it went really really well, I hope so, because I need a job!I'm just so blah! I don't know, Im tired Im going ( Read more... )

Wow... Is all I have to say about what a shitty night tonight has been... Let's just say, that I found out about Will cheating on me AGAIN with Shannon, So I broke up with him... I really can't take that anymore... So ANYWAYS, while we were talking Joe starts to yell at us,etc. So Will got pissed and told him to shut the fuck up and leave us alone ( Read more... )

Blah, well I've had a kinda shitty week... But it happeneds (happy bert, Im updating,so here you can have a piece of my life, for the past week) I went to a party, and then I fucked up, and cheated on Will... then I lied to him about it, well sorta, I just didnt tell him everything that happened, and someone told him... so he just about broke up ( Read more... )

Quite a few things have been going on... I got kicked off of the swim team, but I'm working on getting put back on. Me and Will have been pretty good, except for we have our fair shares of problems... we're trying to work through them. One of my biggest issues is that, my heart can't get past David, and he's always on the back of my mind... But ( Read more... )

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Wow... I feel really stupid... I don't know, I told everyone that was involved that it wasn't bothering me but it was. Blah... I really really like Will, but we were up at TRIUNE, and a bunch of other girls were all up on his shit... some of my really good friends... I just told them, you know what go for it, because I told him that I wasn't ready ( Read more... )

i haven't really updated in a while... I've just been busy lately, I have a new site thingy, and that has a journal, so ive been posting there, but I always end up coming back to LJ... well if your interested, rate me, and make an account and add me ( Read more... )