I hate me. I am so mad at myself right now. I worked so hard on my applcation for channel one stuedent produced week. My letter was awesome my video was so tight and i fuck it up and the very end. I forget to put the po box on the envelope. I'm so mad at myself. This meant so much to me...I worked so hard. And this is the first time that i wanted ( Read more... )

So i haven't updated since sunday? I guess. Things are ok. It's a week before mid terms so things in school are pretty blah. Stuff between me and Jamie is still wierd...really wierd. It's just really diffrent to not talk to your best friend and feel like you have to put an act on for her. I know things will improve soon but i'm sad this all ( Read more... )

This weekend was fun.Even if saturday night was spent doing a world cultures project.Me,Lisa,Ash,and Mandi look hot in our togas and we are getting aaaaaaa's.Johnny made me feel better friday too <3 Especially when we came whipping around my street in the cool ass mini van.:-).So i guess our world cultures and this weekend wasn't such a lost cause ( Read more... )

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I haven't talked to one of my best friends in three weeks.She hasn't even looked my way and it doesn't seem like she even cares ( Read more... )

I was right. No callback. It's the same shit diffrent year. I knew this was going to happen.But why does it still hurt so much? I wish i could not care...i wish i didn't even like to perform. Fuck that. It hurts.

I AM: depressed right now ( Read more... )

I'm bummed. I don't even know why. New years used to be the best.I don't even want to go out tonight.I'm not in the mood and i know wherever i go i'm not going to have fun. Everyones off doing their own thing and i wish for once all my friends could come together and do SOMETHING without it being world war 3.BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ( Read more... )

This break has been uneventful..that sucks ( Read more... )

This years answers

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? rode huge ass rollecoasters,kayaked,went to seaside( i hated it lol)

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't make one last year.But i think this year my resolution will be to make a more consciousa effort to be nicer ( Read more... )