Mom & I went shopping thi'smorning and bought her an outfit for my graduation tomorrow. I think I need to take a water pill or two since I had 1/2 cup of coffee and a Red Bull. I was going to stay away from caffeine all together but it's really hard, especially after sleeping all night on a yoga mat ( Read more... )

I really actually binged. The urge to eat kept pulling me out of my chair by my hair. This is probably consequence of purging, which my teeth hurt from. I didn't do any significant damage, because we don't have any cookies or ice cream, but I did essentially "binge" on 2 granola bars, a few crackers, and some cheetos. I felt like I was bingeing ( Read more... )

There is hope for me yet. I am just going to start exercising more and praying my heart out. I don't know who to pray to, because a God of my understanding has slipped from my grasp, and has been replaced with the awe-inspiring infinity of nature and my surroundings. I am captivated by moments of silence, brief, lapsing, or elongated and ( Read more... )

So I just purged my lunch and now I'm going to walk six miles.

155 after dinner... 5'10.5....., pretty good actually......


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So I have a couple of days of nothingness which will consist of early morning and late night walks coupled with organizing my life... from clothes to email to myspace to book shelves, it is necessary ( Read more... )

2nd to last day of my high school career ( Read more... )

I just want to say how beautiful the day was. My walk home was incredible. It rained for a bit before I left, giving the earth that sweet rain fall smell. The hills were grassy and gold with bussels of lavender and bursts of rusty colored flowers. I sat down at the park and smoked a cigarette and set down my book and lighter. The sky had that ( Read more... )

So I started my period and bled on my plaid skirt. Mixed blessing. Now I can start my birth control pills. Actually, I already did.

tomorrow I have an interview at the coffee place on Biddle ( Read more... )