Never have I gone through so much pain with a girl. They always say your first break is always the worst. I fine that truely wrong. The break up with the girl you truely love is the worst. I dont care what anybody says. Why couldnt I have just severed my spine, or maybe broken my neck? I would rather go though that rather than this. Of course I can ( Read more... )

i feel as if im a hypocrit. i know everyone has a bit of hypocrisy in them whether they knnow it or not. but i feel it to the point of guilt. i feel depressed about it...i know i dont have the right to though because im doing this thing too. i cant really say what im a hypocrit about considering this is a public journal..if u really wanna kno, ask ( Read more... )

im finally getting out of this fucking town. good riddance. i thought long and hard about transferring to ucf next semester and i decided to do it. the only thing that was keeping me back was my financial situation, i goto bcc for free. but theres no life here. bcc is like highschool all over again, i hate it. you only goto college for 2-8 years of ( Read more... )

being depressed sux balls....im done thinking

Ryan doesnt hold grudges ( Read more... )

i dont like BCC ( Read more... )

so i guess riding down the melbourne causway on a ripstick was not the greatest idea...even tho id do it again (w/ the proper protective gear. we had to of been hitting 40 kuz we were goin faster than the cars on the road. i ate major shit at the end..as did fierce. i hit my head, scraped and burned my left and right elbow, scraped both knees, my ( Read more... )

i try really hard to please my friends. im sorry if we live in palmbay and i cant find something to do. im sorry i try to bring all my friends together just to hang out and talk. shouldnt that what its all about? it saddens me when friends come up to me and say "if were not doing anything, then im going home". it makes me sad more than it does mad ( Read more... )

so i spent the whole day at my grandmas house. i got there around 2 and i cut the yard and cut down a few trees. the yard looks really nice, im rather proud. matt showed up when he got off work aroudn 430. after i finished my gmas yard we did her neighbors. that yard was freakin tall. it took us about 2 hours to do. but we made it look nice. the ( Read more... )

i really hope this works, i want her to come to her senses, i want her to follow my advice. i want her to do whats right...ill pray for her.

i think i should become a psychologist either that or an axe murderer.