Sleep, is a thing of the past. Don't waste too much time on it ( Read more... )

How is it that in life, we meet so many amazing people. We love and we value and we try to keep relationships, friendships, lovers.... yet somehow we lose them and we find ourselves finding new loves, new friendships, new people to cherish. Its not that we ever forget the old ones, or maybe we do...but we cherish the way we felt around them, the ( Read more... )

 so, maybe I wasn't so right after all. I was perfectly fine living my life, and you were perfectly fine living yours. 
So, I felt something...i felt a little tiny bit of something for him. and its terrible. once again. and now i know why i tried so so hard to forget it and bury it forever and ever and ever so that i wouldnt feel this torment. Not ( Read more... )

Alright, it has been quite a while and once again so much has changed in my life it seems. Life has so many curveballs it seems. I guess things with Dave have completly hit the fan. Contact there is pretty well nonexistant. Which is far from what I expected. How did we go from talking hours a day, to absolutly nothing? I am very very confused about ( Read more... )

Maybe one day ill understand
why today i feel the way i do..
Maybe one day ill understand
why my feelings for you never changed..

Tonight i miss your touch, your smile, your eyes on mine..
tomorow ill forget you were ever mine....

I am having the hardest time right now, trying to find the words for how I feel. I really hate the point I am at  right now.  some days are good and some are really bad.  I just feel lost inside.  I dont know what I want or what I want to do even tomorow. I want to pick up and leave and not contact anybody.  I want to start over all on my own ( Read more... )

It has been quite the while since I have written in livejournal! I remember when me and jenn started this and would write in it almost every day filling it in with details of highschool and our lovely lives haha. Wow how carefree we were in a way. Now its more then a year after grad and I havent seen her since. I guess thats highschool for you. I'm ( Read more... )

A year has passed
and now we stand on the brink of
returning to a world where we are
surrounded by the paradox of everything,
and yet nothing being the same.

In two months
we will reluctantly give our hugs and,
fighting the tears,say goodbye to people who
were once just names on a sheet of paper
to return to people
that we hugged and fought tears to
say ( Read more... )

I am very confused at the moment.  At the moment I am in a relationship that I have been in on and off for the last 2 and a half years.  And I do love it, a lot.  Does having something you dont have make you crave it more?  Sometimes I think I dont want to be this serious, and I dont want to be restricted.  Because what is the difference between a ( Read more... )

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