Inertia

[xquisiteqt]

Some of you may remember my entries regarding my parents' marriage and how it was dissolving, like newly formed ashes in the wind. The neverending fights, the unresolved issues, bitterness, resentment, roving eyes and mysterious lipstick even...some may also remember how the renewed cancer quelled these fights. Today I realized that the physical

Comments

[slurpee]

=/ great entry, nat. just sad that it is born from those ill feelings you've written about [heartache, disappointment, stubbornness]...i hope your parents find peace with one another, and let bygones be bygones. i know all too well how that affects the family.

and i hope for the best for your dad. you hang in there too!

[xquisiteqt]

hang in there? i hate being in the middle of it all...makes me want to hang myself! =P

hits home

[chocostrawberri]

Hi. I happen to have read your post and its quite scary for me. I feel like i'm going down that path and its very unsettling.

Re: hits home

[xquisiteqt]

yes, it is unsettling. however, you're also on the path to awareness. pay attention.

The family curse

[madmonkay]

The family curse... of course I know how that all feels. You won't be like that, I don't see it in you anyways. We are of a different generation, but I can see how that can scare anyone. Your parents are what you know, and they actually set an example. Negativity plays a part in your daily life because you learn it. I always see myself acting like my mom as well. Its crazy, all our moms are off the wall. You are doing well because you are still surviving. I'm surprised all of us aren't in mental institutions by now dealing with our moms! Its good that you identify everything that you don't want to inherit. Thats always a good first step. I still have to learn that...

Re: The family curse

[xquisiteqt]

*sigh* what sucks is that i know i'm a product of BOTH my parents (refer to Celestine Prophecy) and see both their qualities within, which leaves me with the question: can i really depart from who i am? anyway, thanks for the support, cuz.

[junco513]

i think the fact that you are afraid to end up so negative like your mom will prevent you from being that way. at least from your entries i don't see you as an overly negative person. :)

[sublue]

wow, just read this entry...thanks for the reminder to never settle for less.