I'm sitting in the library again, trying to figure out something to type. I've been becoming a bit more morbid recently, and because of it I feel awake. Well, almost awake, but more so than I have in a while. I don't think I'll ever be fully awake ever again, because the insanity keeps me awake at night and doesn't let me sleep and without sleep ( Read more... )

I've been feeling so fried recently. Every time I try to remember something or try to say something, my brain just doesn't want to work. My brain has been fried before, but it hasn't been this bad in a while. I remember back in 7th grade I would be so unfocused and talking about whatever I wanted, because I just couldn't learn a damn thing. I ( Read more... )

I'm worried, and rightfully so. Elyzah has been acting very flirty yet very morbid recently. She tells me how she thinks of me all the time and how without me her life would be nothing right now. I just want her to try to be able to live without being too attached to me. She knows very well what happened when she attached herself too much to ( Read more... )

It's early. It's raining. It's Monday. It's school. Should be working on my history project write now. Should be troubleshooting the power library stuff for my english class right now. Could be doing a lot of other things right now, but I'm not. I was flipping to my pass page of my agenda and i caught a glimpse of the only phone number in it ( Read more... )

WOW! I'm in a great mood that is very great. I could go on for hours typing about how well I feel and my fingers could fall off and I'd still be happy. I talked on the phone for an hour (not just listening, but I did actually do some talking), and when she had to get off I told her I should come over today. After we both hung up I went to her ( Read more... )

Why, why, why? Why won't my modem connect? I have no way of letting anyone know where I am, what I'm doing, and all of that. Without it, I can't tell Elyzah anything, and most likely I won't be able to call her because she'll be using her internet. I wish there was some way that I could tell her what's happening, and make sure that everything ( Read more... )

Hey, it's hitler's birthday, national weed day, and all those other days. And here I am, sitting at my computer, listening to music, getting slightly aggravated over the fact that my modem will not connect. I am so bored, yet I will not let my worries and fears shred me apart. I know that Elyzah is most likely getting ready for bryan's prom, and ( Read more... )

hey, tomorrow is Saturday! that means that I'm going to be able to sit around and do nothing all day! I enjoy stuff. I enjoy snuggling with Elyzah in the morning because it makes the day worth it. Today we even had a similar moment before my lunch period. For some reason I was feeling insecure all day. Why? Because I did. I wasn't insecure ( Read more... )

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My parents have punished me for the stupidest thing ever by giving me the stupidest punishment ever. After getting done my English stuff, I feel my sugar high wearing away, I decide to take a nap. After an hour of sleeping, I awake to my mom yelling at me for no apparent reason. I walk downstairs to eat dinner, and my dad screams at me that ( Read more... )