This voice is sadly familiar. I've been here before: these sweet things melt into my arms like cotton candy, beautiful yet empty inside, for the most part. 
I know the source of your pain is made much in the same way. He is nothing but a unique blend of chaos, not nearly as much a novelty as he thinks himself. 
I've seen a hundred of you. You're ( Read more... )

 I would like to go shark diving. I really love sharks. I have for as long as I can remember. My family always jokes about that. But right now I'm just watching Animal Planet and these divers scoping out great whites in the "ring of death" in this submarine-like cage, and I just really wish I was there right now. I love and fear the ocean so much. ( Read more... )

I would absolutely say that I am addicted to Ebay right now. I really only thought of making a livejournal entry to distract myself from the itch to "WIN" everything I set my heart on. Really it's between vintage mini dresses and vintage shoes.. I can't get enough. Search either one and you'll come up with 6000+ items at any given time..  like 2000 ( Read more... )

Funny how quickly and dramatically a world can change. Spring of 2005, she makes a giggly little journal entry about her first real boyfriend, and how it made her dizzy with stars when he said "I love you." Fall 2006, she holds a new baby in her arms, swearing she's never loved before now. She never did like babies. She always swore she'd never ( Read more... )

 I read somewhere that depression is anger turned inward. This, I believe, is very true.

I wonder why I have so much anger this week. I am unable to remove my claws from it, it seems they only sink deeper. I don't want to confront it, I can't even put it into words so I'd rather show what I'm feeling. But subtleties are slow and torturous, and no ( Read more... )

What should I do?
Seek out a powerful patron to pursue?
Cling to him like a vine?
Wind around him to fawn and whine
And rise through ruse instead of merit?
No, thank you!
Compose, as a rule, poems for usurers?
Play the fool, hoping to see some minister
give a smile that's not sinister?
No, thank you!
Find genius in imbeciles?
And let shrill squeals of regret
( Read more... )

It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone, so far.

I feel so blase. At the same time, nothing really gets to me anymore.
I had a dream that I was looking at the New York City skyline at night. All of the sudden, I started seeing stars pop up like the most brilliant diamonds in the sky. Then all of the planets appeared, as if they were ( Read more... )

I dont really have anything important to say I just feel that I should mark the occasion ( Read more... )

Crying, I suppose, is about as useful as eating donuts.

A sick body with a good heart is more beneficial to future lives than a fit, healthy body that is used for self-cherishing.

Sometimes it's just time for samsara to take place. Goodness has little or nothing to do with it.
I hope that I can face her as bravely as a mother about to give birth. I ( Read more... )

I can't help but close my eyes and toss my hair from left to right when I'm singing loud as I can. I wonder at which point my skin might just start splattering pretty patterns across the sky like paint slapping against a wall, then follow gravity back to earth like raindrops.

When I get to the bottom I go back to the top of the slide
Where I stop ( Read more... )