I don't know if anyone cares but I have a new journal:
__seraphim
It's my recovery journal essentially.

add my new journal:
insignificunt

for the anonymous poster..just in case you didn't get my reply...email me at LadyPhoenix@hotmail.com

thanks!! :D

Okay, I'm moving to a new journal. Sorry guys. I know it's a hassel. But I feel to raw. Too vulnerable. And I have some friends from 'frew who read this so I want to leave it unlocked. I'm going to mail the 'frew girls who read this the new name ( Read more... )

Feeling too vulnerable with this journal..too exposed. I am on a website that I have my s/n on, and everyday I have about 2-3 people IM me, and I forget I have this journal in my profile ( Read more... )

A clear blue sky
Flock of birds slice through the air
Cars drive by
Eyes, like a newborn, drink everything in.
Cigarette in hand,
Smile on my face.
A peaceful calm hangs in the air.
Moments like these lets me know,
That everything will be Okay.

I just purged ( Read more... )

I came to a painful realization today. Rather, I always knew this, but I truly came to understand it. I can't save people. I just can't. And it kills me to sit back and watch people essentially slowly kill themselves. I was too caught up in my own disorder to see this, but now since I'm not drowning in my symptoms I can see what others are doing to ( Read more... )

2 months.

I never thought this day would come. 60 days without using my behaviors. It seems so surreal, yet at the same time so normal. The thought of purging seems so foreign to me, but I haven't binged yet, and I know that will be a true test if/when I do.

I was watching a cartoon last night and something profound was actually said.

You can ( Read more... )

This morning I was listening to "Warning" and really hearing the lyrics. The two that stuck out the most were ( Read more... )