i hate that everyone is so fucking perfect but me

:*( so adam and i broke up last night...worst pain ive ever been in in my life, its horrible, scary, & empty. I dont know what to do without him, i want to give him his space but then at the same time i want to smother him bc i want to soak him up & remember him for always. this was never supposed to happen, we were supposed to work, i would never ( Read more... )

I'm fucking tired of always being lied to, I dont fucking need it anymore, if someone wants to constantly lie to me and deny it then i dont need them anymore. I'm tired of always getting my hopes up and having them torn down by one person, I dont do this to them, so why should i have to deal with it. Why should it be ok for me to constantly feel ( Read more... )

i started my new job on wednesday, so far im not too fond of it. it all confuses me. i wasnt meant to work with smart people, hah. i make so many mistakes, i bet they regret hiring me now! i hate being new and not knowing what im doing ( Read more... )

yaaay, i got a myspace, i dont really know how to make it pretty yet, but im trying! i dont really know anyone else with a myspace, so if you have one and want to add me that would be looooovely! :D  check out my myspace

the bank called me yesterday and offered me a job, that was sexy. it'll be monday, tues, thurs and friday 4-close, which isnt too bad, ive had worse. the only thing they have to do is check my references and take a drug test :D so im excited. money money money ( Read more... )

yaaay, i got a new cell phone and its a camera phone so i finally figured out how to post pictures on here! yaaay, so excited! :D

( look at my pictures dammit )

yaaaaaay, the bank just called me and i have another interview tomorrow at 4 at the branch i would work at!! im so excited but so nervous!!! wish me good fucking luck!

bah. im so torn. i applied for a proof operating job and i had my 1st interview/test or whatever, and my scores were HOT! and if i would get a 2nd interview and get hired, i would REEEEEAAAAAALLLLLLY like to take the job, but im really thinking i wont.. :\ i want it, yet i dont...

i want the job because.....

• it would be steady hours
• M-F full time
• ( Read more... )

What do you do when the only person who can make things better, is the one person who's causing you all the pain...

I wish you could take breaks from life, because right now i desperately need one. i wish life would wait for you.