hmmm. its been a long ass time since i've written in here.

well i talked to john last night. it wasnt bad. not at all actually. i was suppose to go to his house. but man i was way to tired.

well i have a boyfriend his names david. he's a pretty emo kid. a little bit of an asshole but he always makes up for it.

i really love him. i've never ever ( Read more... )

well. where do i begin. how about with john. hes changed alot n treats me like im a peice of shit. i dont deserve it. we're no long BFF. i miss him alot. but he has his own glam kid friends to hang out w/. so its all good. i have a picture w/ his dino from like whoa along time ago. its cute. cuz im cute. i met this really cute guy david he make me ( Read more... )

*sigh* i understand im not the best out there but why am i so bad?
why cant people i want to love me love me?
why cant they see the true person i am??
i cryed again!
im not sure why.
but i think its because no gets it.
i'm hungry for love!!!
i should just live w/ myself happily but i cant.

my life seems to be going downhill again ( Read more... )

people say i dont update but when i do no one reads it! argh!
today.....
it sucked!

Im lost

gone no one to trust....not even myself

Where am I suppose to be

Who am i suppose love?

Who really does care?

Is this even real?

Im lost......

Ne one can see

the real me

i write this on paper but not even the paper i can trust

it gave out to much information

I suppose the only thing to do is keep it here

locked up for no one to see

but me ( Read more... )

my mother is a complete bitch she is trying to keep me away from my bestestestest friend john......

he is my world! i cant live without him! he means sooo much to me!!!!

well theres more to the story but only if you really want to know i dont think i should tell

( ME AND MY BABE! )

im so fucking fed up with this shit!!!

i hate her!

ahhhhh!!!!

she completely invaded my privacy and didnt trust me!!!

holy fucking shit i hate her!!!!

argh!!

just imagine it....me in my hot bra and matching lace thong masterbating in ur bed..biting my lip try not to scream...bitting my lip just isnt working i yell out "DURAN*" and look at u w/ blood shot eyes wanting u to help me masterbate.....i lie there waiting for u to come rescue me.... im sweaty from all the masterbating ive been doing....i just ( Read more... )

well i normally dont write about whats going on in my life i only write wat i feel about it....not today... this week is spring break its been oodles of fun seeing john like everyday!!! i love it!! this past weekend was pretty kool saturday i had heath...then sunday i got a lil portion or ernie....fun fun fun...jonas.....oh that poor kid jonas... ( Read more... )