so my day may be ruined completely because i might not get to hang with the gang today. most of 'em are going to vermont with phill and his family. my mom wont let me go cause his mom's a psyco. but i have to hang out with mj, who might go with then, the peeps at anna's house and manix. this day is not going so well, i hate it. arg. weird, just ( Read more... )

it's friday, there's somewhat of a party, somewhat got crashed. found somewhat of trust in kenney, wich is good for amanda, i no longer hate him as i did. we've been talking a lot about the person i like, he's being honest and a good friend. well i don't know what's going to happen for the rest of the night but it should be really odd, really ( Read more... )

monday was a bad day.went to anna's, not bad, went to sara's, not bad. went home, turned some lights off cause i saw lightening and my mom told me to start unplugging shit. tony came home while i was in the basement talking to beth on the phone cause i was looking for her skirt. tony started bitching at me cause i went in his room to turn the ( Read more... )

well kate, phill and i just cleaned out the cubby whole in phill's room, it looks a lot better now! places to chill and such now we need an excuse to have the money his mom owes him for cleaning the room, or rather an excuse why it will be gone later other than weed. i wonder when jimmy will be home. it's odd, i had a dream last night he was in it ( Read more... )

someone told me that when they get into a relationship they don't ditch out on their friends, that they don't become consumed by the person they love and forget everyone else exists. i think a friend of mine... is forgetting that. it makes me sad but it also makes me think, maybe i'm the wrong person for anyone to be friends with. maybe i should ( Read more... )

i've screwed up, i feel like doing it, and the more i think of it the more i think i'll try. there's no way i can fix the things i've done so here is my sorry now, i know that sorry isn't anything but for now it's the best i can do. i'm trying so hard and i keep screwing up. i'm just not cut out for this life so i'll cut myself from it ( Read more... )

fairwell mj

mj is going to placement tomorrow, gonna have some time to practice so i can kick his ass when i get back. he will be missed. obviously i'm at phill-bob's house right now. been playing lunch money with the gang and the peeps at my house. it's been funn, and it's a really awesome game. kate's getting me a copy of it off ebay and i'm ( Read more... )

locked inside a box no way out and just listening, observing through the tiny hole, they can't see me but i can see them ( Read more... )

ay phil-bob's house. yesturday was his birthday and today is a party with his friends, i guess i'm included, a lot of people left already. mj and i are here about to smoke. i saw starwars twice already and hopefully going to see it again tomorrow. that movie fucking kicks ass! oh my god!, all people must see it. haha, stoned right now. watching a ( Read more... )

do you know what it's like to not be able to breathe? to be shaking so incredibly, so much that you can't feel, then you can't see, you still can't breathe and you can't see can't feel everything gets foggy, like cotton balls infront of your eyes or simpley fog. maybe your chest hurts and your head, but you can't feel, can't breathe. shaking. how ( Read more... )