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My Cognitive Process is stupid
My coginitive process is daft. but then again its like I'm feeling my life is now complete. well. not complete but so much better than a couple months ago. and its cuza rob ( Read more... ) -
Siberia
"My heart did time in siberia, waiting for the lies to come true, because its all so dark and mysterious, when the one you want doesnt want you too ( Read more... ) -
Despite...
....Having more than 170 friends on facebook, all of which I know in reality, it is possible to feel like you have no-one to talk to. Because in the end I'm going to end up alone so whats the point? Steve has a girlfriend so thats going nowhere. I was starting to think my life would go on the up and its just dragging back down again. Some days I ( Read more... ) -
What The Hell
Where the hell does she get off condescending me about how much i owe dave just cuz she's shagging him? Does the money between me and dave have anything to do with her? No!
I had had a really good night despite Paul being out, mainly becuz i cudnt stop thinking about whether steve wud show up but still, i'd had a good night! dancing with ryan and ( Read more... ) -
Ok so maybe...
Ok, so maybe i do actually like steve. spent ages talking to him last night and i wasnt under the influence of alcohol at all! but i dunno how to go about this stuff! I'm so scared of getting hurt again but steve makes me smile so much. he makes me laugh and he even got all protective last night when a certain twat wudnt leave me alone. Saku likes ( Read more... ) -
Love & Marriage
Anyone ever seen that cancer research advert? all the people saying "I shouldn't be here" and the one girl, in the wedding dress, that says "My mum should be here" That'll be me.
I wish i felt like i could talk to my friends the way i could talk to her, she'd reassure me when i was down.
I just watched one of my favourite films, The Wedding Date, ( Read more... ) -
Confucius says...
OK. so not confucius but rather... Nico.
I'm well confused right now. I think i really miss how it feels to be in love. you know the hand holding the cuddles the kisses the longing, i've been spending every karaoke night pretty much talking to steve loads and he's a lovely guy and he makes me smile and i'm always playfighting and poking and ( Read more... ) -
Mum
You know, I havent actually used this since my days of pining over paul. Thankfully all thats done and dusted but yet, i'm still all screwed up inside, this time not from a boy, but from my mum. I just asked twice to join an icon community trying to convince the owner that although i dont use my livejournal as a blog persay, i'm still on it ( Read more... ) -
Why am I Not Strong enough?
Why do i let him reduce me to tears? Why do i let him do all the crap he does? why the FUCK should i get yelled at cuz i swear and he yell at nobody else, WHY am i the one to be criticised constantly. WHY AM I THE ONE WHO GETS HIS BAD MOODS CONSTANTLY ( Read more... ) -
Do you really?
Don't get emotional he says, Be happy he says, HOW THE FUCK am i supposed to be happy? each day gets harder because each day the hope we'll be back together fades just that little bit more ( Read more... )