I cried myself to sleep last night. I just kept thinking about all the times that we had. Like the night we watched the stars in his back garden, well front garden i suppose. How whenever its a clear night he shows me orions belt cuz he knows thats my favourite constellation. I even thought of taking everything backstreet boy-ish down in my bedroom ( Read more... )

How do i stop this feeling inside ( Read more... )

NICO
has been through alot
is still a wonderfull person after a bitter twisted world tried to ruin her
is loved highly by her friends
loves and cares in times of adversity

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thats wot he wrote about me on his myspace profile about people he looks up to, his heroes. this is torture for me.

I know its hard for him, Because he doesn't know how he's feeling and its awful for me to tell him how i'm feeling because it'll just confuse him more ( Read more... )

I can never seem to say the right thing, I'm completely useless at saying the right thing. No matter what happens or where our conversation goes. I always say the wrong thing. sometimes i wonder if i ever deserved a guy as great as him. i love him so much it hurts and it seems now, all i ever do is say the wrong thing. I wish i could sew my mouth ( Read more... )

One day its there, that maybe we will get back together. and the next its just not. Because its a stupid thought. it seems no matter what i do its the wrong thing, we had sex. and it was wrong because we're not together and i don't care if i'm thinking about it or worrying about it too much ( Read more... )

Nicola my love, you mean the world to me ( Read more... )