it's so weird updating this. not knowing what to say becuz words can only say so much of how i really feel inside. things are going well. nothing bad. don't feel anything bad coming. i am happy. i'm just really more grateful than anything else. wow.
i have a lot to say. not knowing how to put into words. i'm so bad with this. it's frustrating that i can't explain myslef sometimes. yet i feel i have to give excuses or reasons. hmmm.. i'm doing fine. i'm still alive and well. just trying to be happy with what i got.
i'm missing something. and i'm still figuring out what it is. what i'm missing in my life.. but in all honesty.. i think i'll keep searching for it till the day i die. thats when i'll realize. and know for sure.
but i'm happy now. so it's all good. i'm grateful. Thank God.