I died. White face. Black circles around my eyes.
Put in tons of ICU rooms. Trauma unit. Acute Care.
Memory gone.
Not feeling well.

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i'm getting kicked out once again.
i dont have one ounce of hope left.
it's the end.

<3 jess

I royally fucked up my life ( Read more... )

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Thinking of Jason a lot. I'm doing what he's doing. I wish it was me. He needs to be here. he needs his baby. he needs this ( Read more... )

PIcked up by the cops again today.
Fourth time in the past week. I had my luggage, I had my computer. I had my pills.
I'm threatened by my parents. I have no where to go. I have no one who trusts me.
The cops are called constantly. My parents stole all my money. I can't drive. If i leave, I can't come back.
i am a fucking puppet.

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Hey my name is Jess ( Read more... )

Everything is getting more and more fucked up ( Read more... )

Tracing the tracks of bad habits and the painful commandments; I let it get to me ( Read more... )

Another hospital visit.
Blue printed gown down to my shins.
Freezing cold room with a warmed up blanket devouring my body. I like it that way.
Waiting and waiting with a nurse in the room. Watching. Watching. Watching.me.
Protection.

They say it's for the best.
There's nothing left.

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