I thought I was doing better...
....
Now..tonight...I'm just trying to hold on.

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Intensive Outpatient.
Boy is it intense. I'm not ready. I'm not. I do this for you. I do this for you and you push and push.
Eating..
...everyday...it's hard.
I'm distorted. My brain isn't ready to get better.
I'm sorry.

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My heart and body ache everyday. I can't stop thinking.

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We're leaving vacation early to go home to my brother. We all need to be together. He's breaking down (who isn't?). When something so unexpected happens how can you even compose yourself? It's just so aweful to see how everyone is reacting and to know that I tried. To know that I've been where he was to know that it was almost me on more than one ( Read more... )

IOP over winter break.
this sucks.

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I am a dissapointment. I make my family upset.
My mom was just crying. I made her cry. I'm sorry I am troubled.
I'm sorry.
I'm helpless.

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I'm still sick. 2 weeks. Hopefully i'll be ok since I'm a little less stressed since I am done with the important stuff for school.
I feel awful.
One salad and veggie sandwhich and my stomach is killing me.
Treatment?
nah.
maybe. .....
nah.
I've been crying a lot for no reason.
I haven't had anyone to talk to.
Things could be better.

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