i know very entry has been friends only and its been SOOOO long since i have even updated.
i moved out of ny to pittsfield, then 6 months later i moved back to worcester county.
life has been interesting none the less. working two jobs.
i have been needing to get out more and hang out with friends.
i miss my friends and meeting new people.

sometimes i wonder where i am and how i got here and why.
i miss my sister, my niece and nephew. i haven't seen her kids in oh god probally over a year.

their are days i wish i could crawl in a ball and just cry.

days i urne for pain.

days i wish i could talk to so many people i miss... casey.

i wish too much.

casey- i do but they are friends only entries so maybe get you need to get your 13 yr old homo ass in gear and add me ;)
miss you love
much love
trin
xoxo

no job, i barely sleep, i have NO money, but i am happy... go figure. yeah not having a job stresses me out but what can you do... i cacn't just walk into a place and demand them to give me a job...

trin xoxo

my new piercing :)

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i am no longer having all my entries public they are mostly gonna be friends only... i feel this is the only place i can talk about how i really feel...
peace
trin
xoxo

living and breathing two main things i am focusing on... that and trying to fix the voided areas in my life.

hi ho hi ho off to work i go

much love
trin
xoxox

i feel so blank so cold so i don't know ( Read more... )

i am wicked sick.. i pulled my back out at work the other day.. i continued work and suffered about 3 hours of being in pain just so i could finish what i had to.. then i went home and layed down.. woke up teh next morning and could barely move my upper back, couldn't sit up for too long or walk.. its doing a lil better now... today i flipped out ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder if its worth thinking about.. does it matter i care? does she even see that i care.. i am pushing her away and she is pushing me away.. it hurts me so bad though.. but i can't let her know... i don't even know if i will see her when i am up there in a couple weeks.. but i wish it didn't hurt so much pushing her away.. i just ( Read more... )