Life has been nothing less of a rollercoaster. I was loving the single life  let's start from the begining....

Delaware USA - I was sick as a dog, but thank god I made Top 16. I know what's wrong and will be fixed by next year! I'm so thankful for all the new friends I made and can't wait to complete again infront of my family again!

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Three years. I can't believe three years ago was the last time I saw my mom. I wish so bad I could see her again.

I went up to her grave before 10:48am of course. I almost didn't get there in time. I ran 5 red lights and almost got into 3 accidents.

When I got there flashbacks of that morning ran through my mind. It was like I was reliving it again. ( Read more... )

So I am highly enjoying the single life! I mean I am barely at home now. It's fun to finally go out alot and enjoy my college experience without worring the consequences when I get home. Nyk is moving back to TX in a few days. I've made so many new friends and I'm loving it.

Yesterday I went to the UD game and it was so much fun. I haven't been ( Read more... )

Don't mind my title. I am so far behind on my math. Hopefully I can catch up tomorrow since my teacher is going to tutor me.
Enough about school. I'm getting couches. Nyk and I ordered pretty pillowy couches. Yay! I get them Thursday. I could have had them tomorrow, but we don't have time to pick them up. So they will have to wait ha ha.
I dropped ( Read more... )

So alot has happened since I last updated. I've been doing pageants for the America system and I don't like them. The whole pageant is talent and interview. No one is pretty. Some pageant. I love the USA system. I am a USA baby.

I dropped one of my classes and I am so happy about it. Thank god I got that off my back. The teachers an asshole too. ( Read more... )

So Christmas is right around the corner and got all my shopping done. Now I have to decorate Nyk's stocking and get some stocking fillers. I would write what I got Nyk and my dad but they read this I think.
OK so enough about Christmas and back to something important! Kewi no longer has cancer. It has been 3 months since we have cut the tumors out ( Read more... )

I got back yesturday from the pageant. All I wanted to do was make top 15. And I did. Then while I was there I wanted to make top 5. I didn't. It hurt I'm not going to lie. I really thought I had a chance. I do blame my weight, because I was bigger than all the girls in the top 15. And I'm ok with that. I have a year to tone up and win next year. ( Read more... )

So I'm on the verge of leaving and I am nervous as crap. I really want to do well this year or even win. I've put so much hard work into this and I don't want it to go to waste. So I am scared shitless and will update when I get home. Later..

Well it was interesting. Short and sweet just how I like it. The on stage-question I blew, but I still got 1st runner-up. It was such an easy question and I was so nervous that I stopped and had to restart. I felt so dumb. But whatever. Better there than at DE USA right? Thats next weekend. I'm excited. Hopefully I do well. I just want to place at ( Read more... )

2 years. Unbelivable. 2 years ago I watched my mom die in the hospital. I went to her grave before 10:48. I had too. Patty was there. She was putting a silver wreath on mom's grave and she asked me how I was holding up. I shook my head "not good". We cried together in the rain. She knew it was going to rain. She said my mom is sad and misses us. ( Read more... )