So the past week has been ok till today. My thoughts went wild and I had a dream and next thing I know I am on the phone with my dad cussin him out and basically saying everything on my mind. If you don't know whats going on then don't ask. There isen't enough time in the world to explain. Me and my brother have been trying to get it through his ( Read more... )

Holly fucking shit I am so god damn sick and I hate it. Last night I couldn't breathe and I woke up in a panic. It was so scary. I couldn't move at all yesturday. I am pretty sure I had a high fever, I don't know, because my dad was more interested in his gf and his mom then taking care of me and getting me medicine. Yeah how fucked up is that? I ( Read more... )

FOR ONCE I HAD I FUCKING KICK ASS V-DAY! Went and decorated my mom's grave. I miss her so much. Went tanning of course. School was a bore, but I actually went for half the class. My Anna, Courtney, and Tarah weren't there, but I know Tarah was enjoying her hand. Work was so much fun that night <3 Pagie and Sarah were so V-Day lovers ha ha. A guy ( Read more... )

Ok so not only did work fucking suck. I got yelled at all day for no fucking reason. I clocked out a 6 when I was suppost to leave at 630. I ate basically nothing all day, I ate like a bowl of cereal, and now I finally got Wendy's. So I come home to find out that I left the door unlocked and my dad bitches me out. Then I find out later that MY DAD ( Read more... )

Ok so scratch that last thing. VS isen't firing me. Christine said that she is keeping me and don't worry about it. I said fuck math with Goldey-Beacom, I will take it somewhere else. I am only taking 3 courses, and then I am going to Shilling Douglas. I am slowly gaining credit, which is good. I have a pageant in MARCH. Yipes and I need to work ( Read more... )

So 2006 is off to a great fucking start. Failed my math class and the bitch ass won't appeal it. Victoria's Secret can't give me a raise because I was hired for seasonal...which is bullshit. Plus they are firing me as of Jan 14th with the rest of the seasonal. That fucking sucks. And to top it all off....all the scholarships are off. WHAT THE FUCK ( Read more... )

I just realized how much things can change in 2 years. 2 years ago I was getting Christmas presents for everyone...draining my savings account. Last year dreading Christmas, because It was the first one without my mommy. This year I don't even care. I sadi pretty much fuck it to everything. Nothing is the same anymore. Fuck Christmas...fuck ( Read more... )

I really a tired of being confused about everything. I'm tired of working. I am tired of school. I am basically tired of life. When the fuck is it suppost to get interesting?!?! Same shit day by day. Well I guess if you haven't seen I dropped out of college after one semester. Guess I don't have the brains I thought I did. Oh well, throw my body in ( Read more... )

I didn't win the whole thing. It sucks. No titles or anything. I got a trophy for physical fitness and runway modeling. I was 1st runner up. It sucks, but I can still go to nationals.

So the big change is Nyk is moving back to Texas soon. We are not going to be together.

I have a pageant that I leave for Friday..... Wish me luck. East Coast Nationals.