never doing this again

well like usual i havent updated in quite a while, but for a change this is actually a positive post ( Read more... )

so......just got today from another Ocean city trip, stayed at a blaze ass 3 story house with 3 1/2 bathrooms, friggin siiccckkk, went down with gary, josh, mega, jen and kristyna peacock ( Read more... )

i am so fucked up beyond repair.

always depressed, always sad. fuck everything.

what can cure this dude, seriously. its really bad

drinking all the time, listen to depressing music, bawling my eyes out, fuck.

welllll, i just got out of the hospital a few days ago, i had surgery on my right middle finger thursday moring because of an infection i had that led to cellulites. this was caused by my cat because my pitbull daisy had her by the neck and was trying to kill him so i had to jump in to break it up and got fucked up myself ( Read more... )

i deleted this dumb drunk post...

and still have no clue.

is it just me? am i oblivious to whats going on?

i dont want to be played, thats all. be upfront, why can i show devotion yet the same is not done for me.

i feel like drinking and having an alone drunk depressing movie session.

another crush come, and lead me on, totally was feeling this check and thought she was diggin me, i really just wanted to take this girl on dates and treat her awesome, and then i get the shoulder out of nowhere, i have no idea if i even did something wrong, or if shes just bipolar or something, im so terrible at this shit man, and here i am ( Read more... )

i am not doing good in any sense, im always depressed, i have high blood pressure cosindered in the "painic mode" to the doctors, i have a new found fractured foot, i dont know what im doing. all i want is a nice cute girlfriend that i can always rely on and always spend time with and make her happy, that is all. im so sick of listening to ( Read more... )

god i just love reading my old entries now, its like an annual hobby, i made everything sound so fun when i was younger!!