im living back on campus.
fuck off howell!!!!

i desperately need to talk to someone, but its 4am so obviously everyones sleeping. and there is a bug in my room. which makes me really unhappy and for some reason so damn sad.

the only person i really want to talk to is no longer interested. FUCK

i lied. when i said we would always be okay. that i would always be here. because you asked me to leave and i was all too willing to oblige. saying goodbye to you doesnt hurt quite as much as i thought it would.

4 hours is a really long time...

maybe you were just a series of firsts i never should have participated in.

... this will all be over so fast.

im just asking for a little sign that you care.

this falling from grace looks so familiar for you. following a sick and twisted routine, your life on loop, with just the time intervals between landmarks lenthened or cut short to suit your mood. i dont even know if your emotions are genuine because you'd think you would be used to this bullshit by now. your life crumbling and falling apart, that ( Read more... )

i have no idea what i am doing.

sometimes i really hate being me.

i'm okay with how my life is going lately. work, friends, beach, sleep. it's not too rough. so i feel like it's not really my place to complain about anything more substantial than the swarm of bennies at the beach today.

i just wish for romance...

i needed tonight. and i needed tonight to be fake and superficial, to discuss topics that barely skim the surface, that dont delve deep into emotions or past actions. to barely acknowledge what has happened in the past and make no guarentees for the future. really, to just exist in the moment with him, with our past behind us and unspoken and the ( Read more... )